Day Two

Yes, I fell hard. I crashed, I burned, I gained 12lbs. The good news? We had a fabulous vacation and I'm back on track!

It is so nice to be back home but I'm wishing we were back in PEI. We had a wonderful time for the most part. I seemed to be plagued with misfortune, but came out alive. Would you believe I fell and had a black bum for a week? It's now more bruise-like but I could barely sit, not fun when you're 8+ hours away from home!

I did not really overboard eat. I ate until content and usually not much more. We had a wonderful buffet meal at a lobster house (DH had lobster, I didn't). We ate fast food a few times. We had yummy Cows ice cream a few times, yum yum yum!

But now we're home, back to life and back to eating how I should. I wasn't going to weigh myself until Monday to give myself a few days to get the water weight off, but it's ok. It could of been a lot worse!!

So without further ado, here's a family vacation picture (there aren't many of all of us). It's from my favorite place there, Avonlea Village.

Fridge Getting Empty

I need to get anything that will go bad while we're gone eaten up before we leave. Friday's supper should be interesting, lol! I hope we can get all the eggs eaten before we go, lol! If not I'll boil them up and bring them. I boiled up more than a dozen yesterday. Shaylee likes them as snacks. I wasn't going to grocery shop this week but I'm glad I did. I got a ton of pork tenderloin, seasoned with no carbs or funky ingredients, half off. I also got stuff the rest of the family likes on sale. I only brought one bag in and I promised myself I wouldn't buy more than that bag would hold.

I got the car checked over this morning so I'm feeling a little more at ease about our trip. We're going to the beach and having a BBQ with mom today. Her birthday is on Sunday so I wanted to see her and give her the present we got her before we left.

We're having my father over for supper on Thursday. Not sure what to have yet.

I'm not eating the best but I'm doing better. I've been keeping really busy, which helps. Man, there is so much to do. I've been getting up really early to get as much done as I can. There just aren't enough hours in the day!!

Can't Get The Slack Out

Yeah, it's been pretty bad lately. I recommitted myself to sticking to plan then being moderate on our vacation. I have been stressing so much and had been eating anything I felt like for a few days. I decided if I plan to not to stress about what I was going to eat on our vacation, then I won't gain 20lbs before we even leave. I will avoid the foods that cause distress, like bread, and I won't go out of my way to eat bad things. Cottage meals will probably still be things like hamburgers/steak/hot dogs and salad. Eggs for breakfast. Potatoes don't bother me so I won't stress if I have a seafood chowder or if the only thing at a park that isn't too expensive that won't bother me are fries. If I take the vacation food stress out of it, I may be able to survive these next two weeks.

I am busy freaking about the status of our apartment, getting everything done before we leave, I'm really freaked about our car making it (I'm taking it in Wednesday for an oil change and a look over). I'm worried about making it to everything in time. Finding places we want to go and stay. I'm concerned some big financial crisis will happen in the next week. I'm worried because we keep getting calls from this stupid scam that Mark gave personal information to over the internet, that they may steal his identity and get us in trouble (he's done similar things in the past and *just*does*not*learn*!!!). I'm worried about letting Mark drive since I still don't trust him. ect..ect..ect.................

I want to let it all go. I've also been self medicating with lots of video game playing and obsessive cleaning, along with eating. I need to let my fears and paranoia go. I will have fun. Everything will work out fine. I can't control everything!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

(nope, no less stressed)

Where have I been???

I don't know, lol! It just seems like I am always busy. There is always so much going on and so much to do. I've been sticking to low carbing pretty good but still not losing. Durn stall. I hope to break it. I hope even more I can have the self fortitude to stick with it on our vacation. I am planning a few little cheats (a seafood buffet, which shouldn't be too bad, Cow's ice cream and maybe a pizza night). I will attempt to stick otherwise and have been planning our groceries for the trip. I want it to be about having fun, not the food.

I haven't taken pictures of my new do yet. I like having short hair. It takes a few years off me but I feel like I looked really old with long hair, as much as I love long hair.

I made the kids chick pea cookies tonight and admit I had a couple. They're way better than conventional chocolate chip cookies but yeah I was weak. I made the bean chocolate cake with butter cream frosting and oh my YUM!! I'll have to come back with recipe and pictures.

I've been trying to exercise more and be active with the kids. I got them a basketball and a volley ball. I need to get out with them more. I'm getting way behind in my active challenge but I think I will just start again after our vacation. Too much going on lately.

So that's my brief check in :). I'll try to be back sooner with pics!

So Tired!

I have just been so tired these last few days. I have still been exercising and keeping low carb, but I could just sleep all day. I am still adjusting to getting up early every morning I guess, plus my period wipes me out.

I got my hair cut! Now I just need to take pictures. I need to wash it first, lol! It's not as short as I was planning because once I got there I couldn't do it. I did get a lot cut off, all the unhealthy stuff. I can really see how it has thinned on top. It was falling out like crazy but it hasn't been now that it's been cut.

Dad is taking me and the kids to the Valley tomorrow for the Apple Blossom Festival/parade. I can't wait! I'm hoping we eat at Burger King as I'd love to try the triple whopper (w/o bun of course). I know he'd rather go to a buffet but the kids don't like those and there usually isn't anything I can have. He's pretty flexible about where we eat as long as we do, lol! He was put on a diet pill and as of last week he has lost 7lbs without dieting. I think when he starts the diet he will lose a ton of weight. I don't want to go the medical route as I know if I am diligent I can lose the weight. It just might take longer.

I started making salsa last night but I got so tired I stuck it in the fridge before I started cooking it. I need to get it done today or it will go to waste. I love my homemade salsa but I can't find the recipe I used. I'll come up with something.

I haven't been losing but at least I'm not gaining, other than initially the water weight from my you-know-what. I know it will start going down again when my body evens off :)

Feel So BLAH! Today

I started my period last night and today I'm tired and pain-y. I got up at 6 and did my workout. I am cutting out the running and walking and am doing custom workouts but making sure I have a good mix. My knee is really bothering me and is keeping me up at night (this is usual when it's hurting). I think it's just the continual jerky movement of running and prolonged walking as I'm fine with lunges, squats and walking in spurts.

So after I did my workout, Shaylee wanted to exercise with me so I did another one. I was really pooped! I'm really glad that they enjoy it too. It's so much fun! Plus I love seeing that little meter tick off how many calories you're burning!

Tomorrow I am going to do something nice for me. I am getting my hair cut! It has been about 2 years so it will probably shave a couple of pounds off me, lol! I like letting it grow long but it gets frizzy despite treatments and conditioning, it gets knotted like crazy even when I brush it often and it's falling out like crazy (this is normal for me when my hair gets this long). I know it will make me feel so much better as I look so old and tired and while I love the length of my hair, the top of it weighs down my head and I feel it makes me look bigger. I'll have to take before and after shots :)

So, what did I have good to eat today? For breakfast I had fried eggs with cheese and garlic. So yummy! For lunch I had a couple of pork chops and a salad. For supper I made a honey and maple ham in the crockpot but threw in a couple of pork chops for me. I did have a little of their ham (2 carbs/slice) but I thought my chops were so yummy having slow cooked all day. I've also snacked on dark chocolate since I crave it during this time of the month. I only have one bar in the freezer (may have some hiding) and I don't plan on buying more. I need to stop the chocolate madness!

Tomorrow mom is taking the kids and I bought some chicken wings (fresh) for my lunch! I want to deep fry them but I'm going to look around for good wing recipes. I never have wings and can't wait!

Oh and I am also going to make salsa! I love my salsa so much. We are almost through what I canned last year. The Dayton Fruit and Veg has tomatoes and peppers for 75 cents a pound. While I plan on making tons with local producethis , this will suffice until then ;). I am actually growing tons of tomatoes, or I should say I hope they grow, lol! I also have lots of other veggies starting. There is no community garden so I am going to do what I can around here and possibly put some stuff in Mark's parent's garden. It will be fun and interesting. Reminds me there may be a frost so I need to get my plants in.

Well, I could talk and talk but I need to get ready for bed. I'll be sure to post pics tomorrow. I should also have a progress pic since I'm nearly 50lbs down *gasp* (with miles to go...wah!!!!)

Feel The Burn

I am really loving EA Sports Active. It's so fun! Today was supposed to be my rest day but I put together a custom workout of dance moves, some lower body work (lunges, squats, ect...), triceps and sports. It was fun and I burned a lot of calories. So far I've burned close to 1000 calories between my workouts and the extra work I've been doing and it is so energizing! I look forward to it and it doesn't tire me out. My biggest problem is the running. It really bothers my bad knee and I have a knotted muscle in my back right calf which I can't work out. I wish I could change it to just walking.

Yesterday I was a bottomless pit. I ate all low carb but I know I got too much salt as my weight was really up today and I'm all bloaty. I'm trying to drink more water. I think I'm due to start my period soon.

The other day I made a good recipe I meant to blog about but forgot and now I can't take pictures. I made the family chocolate donut holes (we call them "Timbits" as they look like the Timbits at Tim Hortons) and I wanted something. So I made coconut flour donut holes. They came out really good. I just took a couple of eggs, a little milk, sweetner, vanilla, pinch paking powder and beat in enough coconut flour to make a dough. Then I dropped it into hot oil to cook in small flat balls (the round ones weren't cooking through and they puffed up a bit anyway). They are good with a bit of cream cheese but after I thought I should of coated them with coconut. I'll have to make them again while writing down the recipe and take a picture. It made enough to have a few a day for 3 days.

Well, I need to get this day going as there is a lot I wanted to do before the family gets up, the bunch of lazy heads. I'm doing a lot better getting up at 6:30 am than I expected but I need to remember to go to bed earlier to make up for it as I tend to stay up really, really late. Eventually I'd like to get up even earlier as I find I am extremely productive in the very early morning.